Showing posts with label cancersucks. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cancersucks. Show all posts

Sunday, May 3, 2015

2015 Apple Blossom 10k Recap

Apple Blossom weekend always seems to be super chaotic. Being newer to the area, I am not familiar with all the road closings and secret spots to park. Rest assured (after 15 minutes of driving around) I found an amazing spot just a 2 minute jog away!

Expecting to wait in lines, I rushed down a hill and then patiently waited for my precarious wife to take the same jaunt. When we finally made it to the registration tent, I was in awe! The “I” to “L” line had no one else in it! Every other line had a minimum of 4 people waiting. I guess it finally pays off to have the Ilnicki surname (that, and knowing when a stranger/telemarketer is calling). Time to stash our shirts and goodie bag and take off for a warm-up run.

Sara led the way down a side street. We chatted briefly as we cruised just over a quarter of a mile around an 8:20 pace. With the start time edging near, we changed directions and headed back.
With about 10 minutes before race-time, my body decided it was round two for bathroom breaks. I said “Good luck” and “love you” to Sara, and her the same. My main squeeze now my main competition  J My number 1 goal, don’t let my wife beat me!

Seeing that the line for the main section of Johnny Blues,  Ed’s Heads, Port-a-Johns or whatever your region calls them, going about 20 people deep, I recalled on my previous year of experience and went an eighth of a mile behind the grandstands. There were at least 10 bathroom stalls, no lines, and plenty of toilet paper! I finished up my paperwork, chatted with a friend on goals (mine being anywhere from 7:00 to 7:15 pace. His being much faster)  and to the line I went. As I was getting my second warm-up in, the national anthem started. Fortunately, I found a spot roughly 4 rows back from the start. “I got this,” I thought, as I scanned the start for my running buddies. I saw no one…

Mile 1
The first mile is always an interesting one. There is no true sectioning of predicted paces, and with many people wanting to get noticed by photographers, friends, family, or just because they think they are the next Meb, everyone is intermingled. This year, it didn’t seem nearly as bad and most actually seemed to know about pacing! With the race jitters on full blast, I took off. Glancing at my watch, I was cruising at a 6:00 pace. Hmmm, let’s pull back on the reins. I started to slow after the second turn and let the waves of people pass me. Then, we start heading up the hill by Handley High School. One by one, I start to pick them off. I also get picked off by a few. However, I do start to fall into my pace. As I crest the hill, a running friend passes me. We are exchange pleasantries and discuss pace and goals. The others surrounding us are in complete silence. We fly down the downhill and cross the grandstands again. Another rush of energy enters my body as I see my parents and daughter cheering me on. Man, she’s a cutie. 6:29 first mile! Whoa!

Mile 2
Mile two seemed to go by just as fast. The vigor of the crowd makes one forget how fast they are actually going.  I kept glancing at my watch, trying to slow down. I was able to slow down a bit, but I felt so good that I decide to keep the fast pace. Not much to say about this mile. Lots of people, both runners and fans. Pace was a 6:44 mile.

5K Mark
The fastest that I was hoping to come through this point was 21:30. This would have put me almost exactly at a 7:00 pace, which would have helped me push even harder. To my surprise, I was pushing it faster --- 21:06. I know 0:24 doesn’t seem like much, but at this moment of this race, I was flabbergasted. This is when I started to believe in myself that a sub 7:00 pace was possible. Up until the start of the next mile, I started doing math in my head, seeing how much I could slack off and still maintain a 7:00 minute pace. Oh, and a coworker, Mike, passed me. His goal was around a 7:00 pace, too. I just wanted to keep him in my sights.

Mile 4
This was by far my least favorite mile. Right before the marker, there was a switchback. On the way to the switchback, I got to see all of my (now much faster) running friends. I cheered them on, which in return made me continue a quick pace. After rounding the corner, I saw my wife and one more friend and his son (whom he was helping pace). The rest of the mile was just me, my thoughts, and a head-wind as the road slightly inclined. Seriously, I had no one to truly pace off of, and Mike was much farther ahead of me than I liked. I needed to turn it up, though my pace was still good - a solid 6:56.

Mile 5
Powering up the next hill (thank you Front Royal), I was able to increase my pace and carry it over into the downhill. I was now way out of my training speed. I started to pass people as I pushed to a 6:30 pace to catch Mike. Cresting the first little knoll, I was slowly reeling him in. I’m not sure if he picked up his pace, too, or what, but I needed a boost badly if I was going to make it happen. I did a quick form check, focused on my breathing, and thought what else I could do. Then, I remembered RunningDad.com ‘s Jeremy Sanders’ posts. He always gives out high fives when he runs. I grabbed a cup of water, doused myself with it, and headed towards the fans. Like a match made in heaven, a little boy roughly 8 years old caught my eye. He knew immediately what to do. He threw out his hand, and I gave him the weakest high five of my life. Yet, the joy on his face put a smile on mine and the run became slightly easier. I pushed onward to run next to Mike. Mile split 6:59

Mile 6
Just over halfway through the last mile, I was able to catch Mike. We talked about the pace, how we both were hurting, and how I had nothing left. I tried my best to keep up with him, but he slowly pulled away by a few strides. This was probably for the better. If I am running next to someone, I feel obligated to talk to them. From this little “break,” I was able to regroup. I did another form/breathing check and focused. Then, like an angel glistening in the sun, I found my next power boost. I girl was holding a sign that read, “Push Button for Power.” Boy, did I push that button! Mile time 6:52.

The last 0.2
Holy crap! I made this far with every mile under 7:00! I definitely didn’t imagine this. As I rounded the corner to get on the home stretch, every muscle fiber was screaming. My form went to crap, and my breathing was now an inconsistent struggle to gasp. I was done, ready to bonk. But then, just when I thought I was going to slowly cross the finish line like a slug on a hot day, I saw Estella. Man, she’s a cutie. With her cheering me on, I pushed aside the pain, threw a smile on my face and charged onward! I was even able to pass Mike (even though his net time still had me beat by 0:01)! Crossing that finish line was pure bliss! My official finishing time was 42:36!

After thoughts

As I sit here typing this, my wife is mocking me about my usual sayings, “If I would have ran a little more” or “if I trained a bit harder” yada yada yada, I completely think of the opposite. I’m darn proud of myself and what I accomplished. To come back on such a short amount of time and with not much training, I was still able to push myself beyond what I thought I was capable of doing. My body was riddled with toxins and most cells were either dead or dying just a few weeks ago. I’m still recovering, yes; however, I am still a contender. A few more training runs and some core workouts and I’ll be back to my old pace. With that said, watch out running world, Ilnicki is (slowly coming) back! 
(My amazing wife, Sara and myself after completing 
the Apple Blossom 10K. Photo credits to Kim Ilnicki)

Sunday, April 19, 2015

On the Road Again

Well, the last 4 months was worth it. The chemo did it's job and I'm cancer free!

Now it's time to get back out there and crush it... at least that's what I keep I telling myself.

Sadly, I'm finding it harder than ever to get motivated to go for a run. With work and coaching, I find myself saying, "I'll just go out tomorrow and run." Tomorrow comes and goes with roughly 2 miles under my shoes from track practice. Obviously that's not enough.

The worst part is, I have races coming up that I want to do extremely well at. First on the list is the Apple Blossom 10k. I did pretty well last year and was hoping to make a solid racing debut post chemo. The problem is, 6.2 is going to hurt. Not the normal pushing myself hard hurt, but the "OH MY GOD MY LEGS AND LUNGS ARE ON FIRE" hurt. Just finishing the 10k will be tough.

After that, there is the Liberty 5k. Not a great amount of importance, but the course destroyed me mentally and physically last year. All I want is some payback.

On top of that, my wife, group of running friends, and myself signed up for the Richmond marathon. Though it will be great fun, I'm nervous as heck. I'm too competitive as a person and don't want to finish last amongst all if us. That means I need to train. HARD.

That's it for now. Just a quick update and hopefully something to get me kickstarted to run again!

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Bacon

Ah, the weekend. Time for some much needed rest and a hardy breakfast.

There are a few things I enjoy more in life than a simple breakfast of bacon and eggs. The aroma that surrounds the house and the crackle of fat frying in the pan are two things I love. On a good day, I could enjoy a pound of bacon, three fried eggs, and guzzle a cup of coffee without thinking twice.

Fortunately, today wasn't one of those days. Instead, I settled for a half a pound of bacon and two eggs. I still enjoyed the cup of coffee and soaked things up with a piece of toast.

After finishing my masterpiece, I did what every highly intelligent individual would do. Sit on the couch? Read the paper? Nay, I say. I went running.

With the chemo and its effects, I'll be the first to admit I haven't been running that much - once maybe twice a week, if I'm lucky. I've been doing the Winter Series races, but that is about it. Factor in my (low) participation in my P.E. classes and I'm lucky if I net five miles a week.

Anyways, on to today's run! 
It started off great. A beautiful, snow-kissed morning with no wind. I settle immediately at an 8:00/mile pace and cruised through the alleyways. I didn't have a set destination or mileage planned. I just wanted to get out. I figured anywhere between three and five miles would suffice.

The first mile went without a hitch. Breathing was slightly fast, but the cadence of my feet felt great and my heart wasn't pounding out of my chest. The roads were clean, and not much traffic to boot!

Working my way towards mile two, I decided to go on the low end of my three to five BUT ONLY  if I could negative split. I increased my foot turnover, focused on my stride, and told myself I was okay. Then it happened. It started as a tickle, then a need to cough. Only it didn't feel like the mucous filled loogie that I usually hock up. It burned and tasted terrible.

Now don't get me wrong. I've spewed before, during, and after races a decent amount of times. It is never pleasant. But, it is something that I have grown accustomed to. I still hate dry heaving though. It's just this time, the acidity of the coffee and subtle smokiness of the bacon hit me hard.

My pace wavered. I gulped hard. Not today! I haven't puked once since chemo and today wasn't going to be that day! Onward! -0:10 seconds. Let's do this!

Mile three was a little more gross. I had to switch to the sidewalk, so I got mixed up in some wonderful slush. There was also a lot of debris and too much traffic to bounce out into the road. However, I still needed that negative split! PUSH!

Whoops, there's that feeling again. GULP! Not today, hombre. Downhill, let's make up some time. I started to crank my legs a bit faster. Respiration elevated. Stomach camp! Focus on breathing. Cramps gone, bacon is back. GULP! As my daughter would say, "That's disgusting!"

The next two minutes were like shampooing directions - lather, rinse, and repeat. Only this time it was run, swallow puke, continue.

Finally, I hit the three mile mark. Initially, I was supposed to slow down and glide home as a cool down. Pshht! That's what sissies would do. I glanced at my watch, pushed the pace harder, and slowly increased my speed for the remaining half. At the peak, I was back at my old 10k pace - 6:20ish!

Overall, I felt great! If I had the option to do it again, I definitely would.

Isn't it weird how something so gross can make you feel so good. It's great to be alive again :)

Sunday, November 30, 2014

Perseverance

Today’s run was one of the hardest runs of my life. It wasn't the distance. It wasn't the pace. Just something about it sucked. I’m sure if I gathered all the pieces, an easy puzzle would appear – not warming up, I didn't have a set pace in mind, very little sleep – but there is more to it than that.

The watch is synced, phone GPS is on, and away I go. I've run this way hundreds of times. A quick left, a right, a few short strides, and a nice hill to get the blood pumping. There isn't much traffic, so I peer to my left to enjoy the melting snow glisten as the sun’s rays turn everything into a swampy mess. Breathing with relative ease, I glance at my watch as I crest the hill. A pace of 8:10/mile. Not too shabby considering I've only ran one other time since my marathon two weeks ago. Fluttering down the hill, I had a strong sense of serenity. Even the decaying plant matter had a subtle, yet surprisingly pleasant smell. Unfortunately, I’m not one to “settle.” If I can go this fast and feel this great, why am I willing to stay comfortable? Push.

And push I did. I wish this story ended here as I galloped off into the afternoon sun. But, that wouldn’t be nearly as entertaining or true. Instead, I upped the pace. Now my breathing is elevated. My heart is pumping. My port feels funny. Does it really? Or am I just making myself think that it feels weird. Just shut up and go. Focus on your stride, why are you leaning your head? Uh, hello – heel strike much? How cool would it be if a deer jumped out of those bushes?! How scared shitless would I be if a deer jumped out of those bushes?! Tune in. Namaste. Left foot, right foot, repeat.

A mile and a half done. In my best Balboa voice I wittingly say to myself, “You’re not so bad.” And this is what makes running a fickle mistress. I thought I was going to own this run. I was cruising. I felt great. I had a good pace going. Hell, I just did my first round of chemotherapy, and I’m out here basically rubbing it in cancer’s face. Well, all this elation came crashing down in an instant. I was able to pick up the pace to complete the second mile, but I started to crash. Like an airplane with a busted engine, it felt like I was forced to do damage control.  My calves started to burn. I guess sitting around the house all day doesn't work them out too much. Breathing? Oh, was I supposed to do that when I run? Here, let me gasp wildly for some extra oxygen atoms. To add insult to injury, here comes a diesel truck spewing exhaust in my path. Wonderful.

All right, get it together. Two thirds done.  A mile to go. The last third of this mile is all downhill. Can’t stop, won’t stop. Fight through the pain… I should stop... WHOA! And there it was. Talk about a moment. I’ve been training for years and have made some (crappy) excuses to not run. But I have never just been so willing to give up. During my 10X10 challenge I walked 4 times. At my marathon, I blissfully sauntered through 2 water stations. I do not mind walking at all, but that’s not what I was thinking to myself. I didn’t say walk or slow down. I said, “I should stop.” Yes, I understand safety is important. No, I do not want to injure myself. Yes, my calves feel like they are going to rupture. But I wanted to stop?! The thought just popped in. Usually, this isn't even a question. Sure, sometimes I think to myself I should slow down – but do actually stop? No way.

The good news is, I had argued with myself (and by arguing I mean calling my internal voice a sissy and pleading for it to shut up) long enough to make it up the hill. Three tenths of a mile, cruise control is set, bring her home. And that’s just what I did. I completed my 3.08 mile run in 23:36, albeit it felt like I had set a new PR – without the gratification and pain of setting a new personal record. Instead, I just stopped my watch, turned off my phone’s GPS, threw off my shirt, and crashed on the back bumper of my vehicle. Questions, doubt, and anger sprinkled with a few other emotions scattered through my brain. Is it going to be easier? Was today just a bad day? Will I get stronger? I tried to answer yes to all of these questions, but I didn't want to lie to myself. Instead, as I rubbed the port buried under my skin checking for God knows what, I accepted one thing. I ran three miles. Yes, it sucked, but you know what? I didn't stop. I pushed when my body said no. I persevered against my own self.  And for that reason, I am proud.

Note: PLEASE, if you are ever injured while running, DO NOT force yourself to do more than what you can. I've been running for quite a while and know my limits. Make sure you know yours and seek medical advice when necessary.