Sunday, May 3, 2015
2015 Apple Blossom 10k Recap
Sunday, April 19, 2015
On the Road Again
Now it's time to get back out there and crush it... at least that's what I keep I telling myself.
Sadly, I'm finding it harder than ever to get motivated to go for a run. With work and coaching, I find myself saying, "I'll just go out tomorrow and run." Tomorrow comes and goes with roughly 2 miles under my shoes from track practice. Obviously that's not enough.
The worst part is, I have races coming up that I want to do extremely well at. First on the list is the Apple Blossom 10k. I did pretty well last year and was hoping to make a solid racing debut post chemo. The problem is, 6.2 is going to hurt. Not the normal pushing myself hard hurt, but the "OH MY GOD MY LEGS AND LUNGS ARE ON FIRE" hurt. Just finishing the 10k will be tough.
After that, there is the Liberty 5k. Not a great amount of importance, but the course destroyed me mentally and physically last year. All I want is some payback.
On top of that, my wife, group of running friends, and myself signed up for the Richmond marathon. Though it will be great fun, I'm nervous as heck. I'm too competitive as a person and don't want to finish last amongst all if us. That means I need to train. HARD.
That's it for now. Just a quick update and hopefully something to get me kickstarted to run again!
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Bacon
There are a few things I enjoy more in life than a simple breakfast of bacon and eggs. The aroma that surrounds the house and the crackle of fat frying in the pan are two things I love. On a good day, I could enjoy a pound of bacon, three fried eggs, and guzzle a cup of coffee without thinking twice.
Fortunately, today wasn't one of those days. Instead, I settled for a half a pound of bacon and two eggs. I still enjoyed the cup of coffee and soaked things up with a piece of toast.
After finishing my masterpiece, I did what every highly intelligent individual would do. Sit on the couch? Read the paper? Nay, I say. I went running.
With the chemo and its effects, I'll be the first to admit I haven't been running that much - once maybe twice a week, if I'm lucky. I've been doing the Winter Series races, but that is about it. Factor in my (low) participation in my P.E. classes and I'm lucky if I net five miles a week.
Anyways, on to today's run!
It started off great. A beautiful, snow-kissed morning with no wind. I settle immediately at an 8:00/mile pace and cruised through the alleyways. I didn't have a set destination or mileage planned. I just wanted to get out. I figured anywhere between three and five miles would suffice.
The first mile went without a hitch. Breathing was slightly fast, but the cadence of my feet felt great and my heart wasn't pounding out of my chest. The roads were clean, and not much traffic to boot!
Working my way towards mile two, I decided to go on the low end of my three to five BUT ONLY if I could negative split. I increased my foot turnover, focused on my stride, and told myself I was okay. Then it happened. It started as a tickle, then a need to cough. Only it didn't feel like the mucous filled loogie that I usually hock up. It burned and tasted terrible.
Now don't get me wrong. I've spewed before, during, and after races a decent amount of times. It is never pleasant. But, it is something that I have grown accustomed to. I still hate dry heaving though. It's just this time, the acidity of the coffee and subtle smokiness of the bacon hit me hard.
My pace wavered. I gulped hard. Not today! I haven't puked once since chemo and today wasn't going to be that day! Onward! -0:10 seconds. Let's do this!
Mile three was a little more gross. I had to switch to the sidewalk, so I got mixed up in some wonderful slush. There was also a lot of debris and too much traffic to bounce out into the road. However, I still needed that negative split! PUSH!
Whoops, there's that feeling again. GULP! Not today, hombre. Downhill, let's make up some time. I started to crank my legs a bit faster. Respiration elevated. Stomach camp! Focus on breathing. Cramps gone, bacon is back. GULP! As my daughter would say, "That's disgusting!"
The next two minutes were like shampooing directions - lather, rinse, and repeat. Only this time it was run, swallow puke, continue.
Finally, I hit the three mile mark. Initially, I was supposed to slow down and glide home as a cool down. Pshht! That's what sissies would do. I glanced at my watch, pushed the pace harder, and slowly increased my speed for the remaining half. At the peak, I was back at my old 10k pace - 6:20ish!
Overall, I felt great! If I had the option to do it again, I definitely would.
Isn't it weird how something so gross can make you feel so good. It's great to be alive again :)
Sunday, November 30, 2014
Perseverance
The watch is synced, phone GPS is on, and away I go. I've run this way hundreds of times. A quick left, a right, a few short strides, and a nice hill to get the blood pumping. There isn't much traffic, so I peer to my left to enjoy the melting snow glisten as the sun’s rays turn everything into a swampy mess. Breathing with relative ease, I glance at my watch as I crest the hill. A pace of 8:10/mile. Not too shabby considering I've only ran one other time since my marathon two weeks ago. Fluttering down the hill, I had a strong sense of serenity. Even the decaying plant matter had a subtle, yet surprisingly pleasant smell. Unfortunately, I’m not one to “settle.” If I can go this fast and feel this great, why am I willing to stay comfortable? Push.
And push I did. I wish this story ended here as I galloped off into the afternoon sun. But, that wouldn’t be nearly as entertaining or true. Instead, I upped the pace. Now my breathing is elevated. My heart is pumping. My port feels funny. Does it really? Or am I just making myself think that it feels weird. Just shut up and go. Focus on your stride, why are you leaning your head? Uh, hello – heel strike much? How cool would it be if a deer jumped out of those bushes?! How scared shitless would I be if a deer jumped out of those bushes?! Tune in. Namaste. Left foot, right foot, repeat.
A mile and a half done. In my best Balboa voice I wittingly say to myself, “You’re not so bad.” And this is what makes running a fickle mistress. I thought I was going to own this run. I was cruising. I felt great. I had a good pace going. Hell, I just did my first round of chemotherapy, and I’m out here basically rubbing it in cancer’s face. Well, all this elation came crashing down in an instant. I was able to pick up the pace to complete the second mile, but I started to crash. Like an airplane with a busted engine, it felt like I was forced to do damage control. My calves started to burn. I guess sitting around the house all day doesn't work them out too much. Breathing? Oh, was I supposed to do that when I run? Here, let me gasp wildly for some extra oxygen atoms. To add insult to injury, here comes a diesel truck spewing exhaust in my path. Wonderful.
All right, get it together. Two thirds done. A mile to go. The last third of this mile is all downhill. Can’t stop, won’t stop. Fight through the pain… I should stop... WHOA! And there it was. Talk about a moment. I’ve been training for years and have made some (crappy) excuses to not run. But I have never just been so willing to give up. During my 10X10 challenge I walked 4 times. At my marathon, I blissfully sauntered through 2 water stations. I do not mind walking at all, but that’s not what I was thinking to myself. I didn’t say walk or slow down. I said, “I should stop.” Yes, I understand safety is important. No, I do not want to injure myself. Yes, my calves feel like they are going to rupture. But I wanted to stop?! The thought just popped in. Usually, this isn't even a question. Sure, sometimes I think to myself I should slow down – but do actually stop? No way.
The good news is, I had argued with myself (and by arguing I mean calling my internal voice a sissy and pleading for it to shut up) long enough to make it up the hill. Three tenths of a mile, cruise control is set, bring her home. And that’s just what I did. I completed my 3.08 mile run in 23:36, albeit it felt like I had set a new PR – without the gratification and pain of setting a new personal record. Instead, I just stopped my watch, turned off my phone’s GPS, threw off my shirt, and crashed on the back bumper of my vehicle. Questions, doubt, and anger sprinkled with a few other emotions scattered through my brain. Is it going to be easier? Was today just a bad day? Will I get stronger? I tried to answer yes to all of these questions, but I didn't want to lie to myself. Instead, as I rubbed the port buried under my skin checking for God knows what, I accepted one thing. I ran three miles. Yes, it sucked, but you know what? I didn't stop. I pushed when my body said no. I persevered against my own self. And for that reason, I am proud.
Note: PLEASE, if you are ever injured while running, DO NOT force yourself to do more than what you can. I've been running for quite a while and know my limits. Make sure you know yours and seek medical advice when necessary.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Another day, another scan
Welp, it's that time again. Time for another round of CT scans. It really isn't a big deal, but it is simply time consuming, boring, and physically and mentally taxing.
Already (I'm typing this as I wait), I've been here for almost 1.5 hours. Originally, this would be a good thing - being that I have to drink 44 ounces of spiked water over the course of an hour to work its way through my system. Instead, my order was never transferred to my local hospital, and I had to wait for a fax to go through. Fortunately, between the local newspaper and free wifi, I've remained occupied. And now that the drink is gone, the paper is read, and my sites are all caught up, I play the waiting game to break up the monotony of the waiting room.
To my dismay, boredom won so you are blessed with another blog post (two this week!).
Thinking of what to type about, I did some self reflection and realized how draining this whole process is.
From a physical standpoint, I'm not supposed to eat or drink anything before my scans. The good news, being that the scans are in the afternoon, I cheated and ate a bagel with cream cheese. The bad news, I usually eat a large breakfast and snack throughout the morning. Besides the no eating, I also won't run today. So now I have to switch up my training for the week.
Mentally, I couldn't sleep last night which carried over to today. My morning consisted of watching "The Soprano's" and napping for almost 3 hours. Waking up, I had the panicking adrenaline rush of thought that I missed my appointment. As if this anxiety wasn't enough, I also hate needles and I think of the worst case scenarios upto and during the procedure itself.
I realize this reads more like a diary, but so be it. Until next time - peace out, home cheese.
Monday, August 11, 2014
What I've Heard This Week While Running
Unfortunately, this week was slightly poor. I ran most of my runs either in the morning or at times when there simply weren't that many people out and about. Regardless, the shoutouts (not the good ones like on Twitter or InstaGram - which by the way, you should follow those) were still around. Here is a quick break down of what I heard this week while running.
- "Hey, sexxay!" I couldn't see the person who shouted this one, but the chorus of giggles after I waved makes me think that the comment was in fact direct towards me
- "Can you smell that?" This phrase was uttered by a man with a chainsaw as he was cutting down a small sapling in his yard. Yes, I can smell the gas from your chainsaw. Thank you for reminding me as I try to conquer this hill that I am on.
- "Run, Forest, run!" No comment, but it was quickly followed by...
- "Do work, son!" from the same guy in a boat, floating down the river that follows a walking path.
- I stopped traffic to prevent a dog getting hit that was chasing me.
- I spoke to an MMA guy in a black fleece while running in 85+ degree weather with a mouthpiece in.
- I was able to run with THE Mike Falcone for 4 miles the day after a phenomenal Nationals Baseball game.
- I was asked about my RunningDad.com t-shirt and also briefly discussed The Lucas Fund.
Monday, August 4, 2014
What I've Heard This Week While Running
- "Run, Forest, run"
- "Heeeeeeeey!" (from a guy in a feminine, flirtatious voice)
- "Hi!" (x2 from people hanging out of their car windows)
- "Nice tattoo"
- *giggles and whispering* Girl 1 - "Hi!" Girl 2 - "Enjoy your run!" (this was when I ran by a group of girls, roughly 12-16 years old at a soccer camp)